Stepping out of the Boat!

It was about 16 years ago that I finally accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. Even though as a young child I can remember talking to God at times, I never really knew exactly who I was talking to. I had heard people talking about God and believed He was real but I had that typical vision and fear of this mean old man sitting up in the clouds looking down and watching every move I made. Looking back now as a Born Again Christian I realize that He was always there for me, possibly the results of past generations of Christian’s who had the vision of praying for their future generations Salvation. I do know that I had a great, great, grand uncle who was a Methodist Minister and who knows, he may have planted the seed for all of us in my family. That little tiny “knowing” within us that there was more to our lives then what we were experiencing as unbelievers.


Whether it was that great uncle or something else that kept resurfacing within my life that lead me to my own personal knowledge and Salvation in Jesus Christ, I am overwhelmingly thankful. I know today without a doubt that what He did on the cross for all of us is the utmost truth and this gift He gave us of eternal life is more precious than anything we could ever have been or will ever be given.


So, this brings me to the purpose of creating this Blog. I currently find myself at a point in my life where I am not exactly sure in what direction I am headed. I have been given a gift of some time off of working outside of the home and all of the stress that I have experienced over the years that it brings. I do not take this gift of time lightly. There were many days when I was working that I can recall sitting at my desk and thinking how I wish I could just be home to find peace within myself and have more time to pray, read my Bible and worship God. I also wanted time to be able to get my health in better shape and start feeling good again. This is why, like I said, I am not taking my time off lightly. But as I have been enjoying those things that I had thought I would never find time to do, at least not at this age, it has reopened another tiny seed that I believe was planted in me at the onset of my Salvation and that is the seed to work for God. You see, I have worked MANY jobs outside of the home since the day after I graduated High School and I have never been satisfied with any of them. I have always wanted more. What that more was I have not known or at least would not admit to myself, let alone anyone else. How could I ever admit that I wanted to somehow in someway work for Jesus? I can come up with all kinds of things people will say as to why I should not be an “employee” of Christ. But through all this time off I have been growing in confidence and more importantly, hunger, a hunger that outweighs any insecurity that says I cannot be part of His Ministry. What exactly this Ministry will be I have no idea. I just know that I must “step out of the boat” (Matthew 14:29-30) and face those waves of insecurity and doubt and trust in His word that “and we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him and have been called according to His purpose” (Romans 8:28). Because, you see, we are ALL called according to His purpose. This means that I can have faith and hope that He has a plan for me, a future working in His office. What department I will be hired to work in I do not yet know. But, I do know that I have a job. Right now I am in training; I am reading the Office manual, I am filling out the paperwork and I have already signed on the dotted line of His contract that He will never rescind or make devoid. All I have to do is show up and God will direct me to my new office.

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Matthew 14:29-30
29"Come," he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, "Lord, save me!"

Romans 8:28
28And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him,[a] who[b] have been called according to his purpose.